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Some dreams of recent

There was a grocery store line, and 3 cashiers. 2 women, one man. Staggered. It was a special occassion, and some agreed to work for more money. But they had to scrub the store top to bottom. (I'm assuming I thought of this because in real life Taco Bueno had a sign up yesterday saying they were closing early, and I guessed it was for a health inspection cleanup.) I switched lines a few times, but never got any closer to leaving. One opened up finally, but the guy just stood staring at me, and wouldn't talk. I remember seeing one of the women scrubing the metal hand rails outside the automatic door.

I was in a large common area, with a water fountain. Much like in New Moon. It was dusk outside. We had a school band/vocal group preparing to perform. It was at setup for a lesson in not spending money on things we don't need, and then not having money later when we need it most. They had all but one flute player join with the vocalists in singing the 12 days of Christmas. Whe…

Todays list:

Things my mind has been made up of recently, and a few that could make it on the "book name" list....

"Oh Crap! I didn't send the Jesus email!"
"I was smelling you before, you smell like Myrna."
"Shovel your cards"
"It zocked me"
"Water so clean, it's like fresh air from the cumulus clouds"
"Eat your mothers funyons"
"Aw, babyface"
"We're just childs"
"Anyone wanna go to scary store?"
"I am a mind giant"
"I am the sack master"
"Back in my viking life..."
"Where is my poonette?"
"I need to put a chocolate post-it in my bathroom"
"Didn't you ever just wanna be British?"

VH1s 100 greatest songs of the '90s

VH1's 100 Greatest Songs of the 90's... the list...

Nirvana - "Smells Like Teen Spirit" (1991, #6 US)
U2 - "One" (1991, #10 US)
Backstreet Boys - "I Want It That Way" (1999, #6 US)
Whitney Houston - "I Will Always Love You" (1992, #1 US)
Madonna - "Vogue" (1990, #1 US)
Sir Mix-A-Lot - "Baby Got Back" (1992, #1 US)
Britney Spears - "...Baby One More Time" (1999, #1 US)
TLC - "Waterfalls" (1994, #1 US)
R.E.M. - "Losing My Religion" (1991, #4 US)
Sinéad O'Connor - "Nothing Compares 2 U" (1990, #1 US)
Pearl Jam - "Jeremy" (1991, #79 US)
Alanis Morissette - "You Oughta Know" (1995)
Dr. Dre (featuring Snoop Doggy Dogg) - "Nuthin' but a "G" Thang" (1992, #2 US)
Mariah Carey - "Vision of Love" (1990, #1 US)
Red Hot Chili Peppers - "Under the Bridge" (1991, #2 US)
MC Hammer - "U Can't Touch This&q…


...of friendships, and scrabble, and drinking wine at night. Of water, and sunshine, and laying in the sand. Of phone calls, and emails, and forgetting to remember. Of hot dogs, and state capitals, and bandaids of all sizes. Things my mind is made up of.

Police on the scene, know what I mean?

We could all benefit from more police on the streets. All except the criminals that is. So, taking into consideration my lack of knowledge about city governments and major scale budgets, here is my proposal. All counties should have an imposed tax on all working adults that would go specifically to law enforcement wages and supplies. Take my city for instance. We have approx. 100,000 working people in the general city area. If all people paid an imposed 25 cent tax per week to the city that would be $100,000 per month. Wouldn't that be enough to supply the city with many more patrols? I know, I know, the money would be taxed and dispersed and levied and blah blah blah. But in the simplest form, it would work. I'll pay a quarter a week for more safety. Wouldn't you?

The Voodoo Flu

I've had it. It is terrible! So bad that I have renamed the 24 hr flu: THE VOODOO FLU!

Something I know that I know nothing about

Do you know what I don't know anything about? The people who lead my city, state, and country. I have never been required to have knowledge of anyone in charge politically. I did attend school, and college classes in the department of government. But I don't remember anyone, or anything. And I'm not required to know it to be a citizen. What will I do to learn this...

Goodness gracious

I recently received an email about love and good deeds. Mother Teresa, know as the Saint of the Little Things, is most recognized for extending a helping hand and a big heart to everyone. She believed that by making small gestures of kindness to everyone we encounter, we can change the world. I believe that when we read good news, we act better. We want to be part of the love and joy of life, so we help out, smile, say excuse me, etc... Our news, radio, and print is full of the negativity in society everyday. I myself have felt the loss of hope when surrounded by bad news. But, when I read a heartwarming account of friendship, love, and selflessness, I notice that I pay it forward more. So, with that, I have decided to start my own "blog-um" about the good things others have done for me. I will not be writing about what I do for others, because a thankless good deed is void, in a sense, if you tell someone. But, I may change my mind about that later; I have a hunch tha…

I was thinking

Driving across town the other day, making out blue sky through thick clouds, I began thinking about my financial situation. And yes, I realize that staring out my sunroof while operating a vehicle IS the safest way to drive. The fact is, I don't live paycheck to paycheck. I live paycheck to 4 days till the next paycheck. I always pull out my pocket calendar, and this is the conversation I have with myself: "Ok, I get paid on tuesday, and the electric, gas, and phone are due. If i put half my check in the joint account to cover the bills, then put the other half in our other account, we'll have money for gas after the joint account overdraws. Then, next week, I'll get paid again and my husband will get paid and we can pay rent and the water bill, and cover the overdraft fees (there should only be 3 or 4). Then take half of whats left to put towards my tuition and the car insurance. So, we should have about $40 left after all that to buy gas for his car, and maybe…

Build here, build there

I'm going to share with you my vast knowledge of building, zoning laws, and ideas to help the environment, because as you remember, I'm a genius. What the heck is the point of the over sized subdivisions going up everywhere? People want to live outside the city, so a builder destroys countless acres to build huge homes on small lots too close together. Then strip malls come into the neighborhood offering every convenience: nail salon, check cashing, bank, liquor store, and of course...Walmart. Now people don't have to go to the "city" to get what they need, they now live in the city, again. If you are willing to pay hundreds of thousands of dollars for a home, and a half acre of grass to be in the "country", wouldn't you be willing to pay the same for a home, a few acres of land, and actually be in a country setting? I suggest that the city governments put more pressure on builders to acquire land in neighborhoods that are mostly condemned, buy t…

Oklahoma everything you want!!

Are you familiar with Oklahoma Access a.k.a Snap a.k.a food stamps? It's a nice little credit card issued by the state with a pre-determined amount of money each month to be used for buying groceries. Sounds good. When I was very young, my parents were on food stamps for a very short time after my dad broke both arms in a construction accident. We had a booklet with colored monopoly-like tickets in it, and used them to purchase food. It was good while we had it. It served its purpose. We always had milk, corn flakes, butter, cheese and some fruit. Basically like getting government commodities. My mom continued to work, and my dad returned to work asap. That's when they took away our food stamps. Now, the card is a much better way to use food stamps. It can be less embarrassing and easier to keep track of. However, what isn't better is the type of food that can be purchased with it. You can buy anything but food off the hot bar, alcohol, and cigs. If the state is trying …

I'm a plus size? So where are my boobs?

And by that I mean, if I'm considered plus size should I have a large chest? I won't say what size I am, but lets just say it's bigger than a 6 and smaller than a 10. You decided. According to some of the top women's magazines, they are going to start using plus size women in their ads. The fashion industry defines a plus size woman to be anything over a size 6, because designers only make samples in 0, 2, and 4. I want to clarify that I in no way want to seem like I am bashing women of any size. I'm not saying, I'm just saying. That being said, how dare they label me plus size? I want to sit down with these people and label them. Maybe if we didn't have these ideas ground into our brains we wouldn't have the self-esteem problems that we have. We should stop judging each other on what we feel is inadequate or less acceptable, and instead judge each other on ideas, creativity, and ability to light up a room with our smiles! Cha'mon!

Why God loves me

Why does He love me? I'll tell you why. Because I love Him. Because I love my husband, my friends, my family, my dogs and I always forget to love myself. Because I work, because I complain about work. Because I'm broke, but I give anyway. I complain about being broke, but never complain about giving. Because I try really hard, and fail...alot! Because I thank Him when things are good, and I also forget to thank Him when things are good. Because I turn to Him in times of trouble or pain, and forget to thank Him in times of trouble or pain. Because I do thank Him in times of trouble or pain. Because I sing loud at church, I cry at church, I skip church, I sleep in church, I need church, I take friends and family to church. Because I don't get involved enough at church, although I wish I did. Because I'm crazy, I'm lazy, I'm happy and sad, mad, angry, confused, and vengeful...all at once. I hate myself, I hate you, I hate my job, I hate my world. I accept my lif…

Me. And who am I?

Facing the tough decision of a path for life has gotten me confused. How can someone decide what they would want to do for a year or two, no less a lifetime. College so far has proven to be less than helpful. Personality tests have left me with choices like: park ranger, counselor, retail manager... A little vast and unconnected don't you think? So, in light of the lack of assistance from outside sources, I have decided to use my blog to openly explore my inner workings. Possibly I can come up with something from that. First, I want to let everyone know, including myself, that I think I am a genius. I believe that even though I have limited knowledge of the issues I will discuss, I feel as though my ideas would work better than any of those currently in circulation. I am an expert in my own mind. So, lets see how smart I really am!