The clouds have parted, the sun is shining, and this curly girl is alive again. A very dark winter took me away from many of the things I loved, including blogging. As I mentioned in a past post, I went through a divorce in 2014. It wasn't a terrible divorce, or a lengthy, angry divorce. It was however a lengthy separation; 2+ years. When the final court date arrived, and the papers were signed, I felt a huge weight lifted off of me. I've taken some time since then to adjust to the thought of no longer bearing the label of 'wife' or 'partner' or 'companion'. I started that adjustment when the separation started in 2012, but it became real when the divorce was filed. Once it was final, the idea fit better, like pair of running shoes after a few miles. :) You just have to wear it a bit in order for it to become part of you. Although my identity is not defined by my relationship labels, it is something we wear, and therefore should take time to be comfor...
Deep conversations with friends about the future Why do I do this to myself? I really think God puts this stuff on my heart so often because He is trying to get my attention. Why mine? I have no idea, and sometimes, I don't want to find out. How scary (and amazing, and scary) to think that He would want MY attention for anything. Gives me the bleeps, the sweeps, and the creeps. What do I do when I'm confused after talking to God for an hour? Consult my friend that is struggling to understand His plan too! God probably loves those conversations. I really mean that. I know He loves to see us talking about pleasing Him. But....we aren't so good at it. The good news is, He already knows that. It doesn't make it ok to just put Him on the back burner when we are unsure of our next move, but it does make it ok that we are imperfect. Whew! Recently we have been discussing where and upon what we should place our life focus. We, as humans, like to make plans for our futur...
I have a 5k coming up. You know that. It's on 5/18, and I'm getting ready! I was successful in running not sucking for 3 days in a row. 1.8 miles each time. I haven't timed it yet. I'm sure it's a slow pace, but the point is that I haven't walked. Just keep running, just keep running. I want to thank SR for an great idea in one of her recent posts. She mentioned that she regularly checks in on how she feels. This caught my attention and I think it's helping me. As I run, I just talk to myself about my feet: How is my heel? Am I landing mid-foot? About my legs: Are they cramping or just burning? About my breathing: Am I struggling for a real reason, or just b/c I'm not paying attention? Basically, and all over check-up. It takes my mind off the road, and helps me realize that I can make it, I can survive. If I walk my muscles will tighten and the walk home will be worse/harder than the run home. Here are a few after shots f...
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