The clouds have parted, the sun is shining, and this curly girl is alive again. A very dark winter took me away from many of the things I loved, including blogging. As I mentioned in a past post, I went through a divorce in 2014. It wasn't a terrible divorce, or a lengthy, angry divorce. It was however a lengthy separation; 2+ years. When the final court date arrived, and the papers were signed, I felt a huge weight lifted off of me. I've taken some time since then to adjust to the thought of no longer bearing the label of 'wife' or 'partner' or 'companion'. I started that adjustment when the separation started in 2012, but it became real when the divorce was filed. Once it was final, the idea fit better, like pair of running shoes after a few miles. :) You just have to wear it a bit in order for it to become part of you. Although my identity is not defined by my relationship labels, it is something we wear, and therefore should take time to be comfor...
I feel a little lost today. Do you ever wake up and just feel...lost? Did I sleep last night? Did I imagine that conversation? Was it a dream, or a memory? Am I tired or not? I woke up shaking in the night, and I don't know why. I was too out of it to even try to understand. I feel like I didn't sleep, but I'm not exhausted. I could swear I had a conversation, or rather, a conversation was had with me, but I'm not certain. I really don't like these types of days. My mind begins to dwell on things that may not have occurred, and I get all out of sorts. I need some time on my yoga mat I think. To get my brain on the right track though, I had a green monster shake and some caramel macchiato almonds. That'll do the trick! __________________________________________________________________________ I had a long/short weekend. It was a bit stressful, and a relief at the same time. It's now created new peace, and new nerves. I'll tell you all about it o...
Sometimes you just have to trust God and go with it. I'm so thankful for the opportunities I've gotten during my life, good and bad, that have shaped me into the chick that I am. I want to radiate the love of Christ through patience, understanding, and hospitality. I think helping and giving are in my bones. I get so excited when I know of an opportunity to lend a hand, lend a shoulder, lend a room, lend a car, whatever it may be. It's what Jesus did, and what He wants us to WANT to do. Oh, but my little mind gets in the way. Don't think for a second that it's easy to give out of lack. It may be true that the less fortunate give a higher percentage of themselves than those well-off, but, that doesn't mean that it is done without worry from time to time. I've tithed BIG amounts, and right before I do, I always worry about that time coming when I'll say "oh, if only I had held on to that money". My stomach knots and my heart races. Then I ...
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